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[Nov. 24th, 2009|01:03 pm] |
This is a new garden over old flowers.
And old makes the old jokes take on the feel of the lore.
And new lips are cradled sense of humor,
So dont waste wishes on him.
Wish that one day theyd figure out how to shrink stars and i could keep one in my bedroom.
And wish that me and her could grow old together.
And wish that in my next life I come back as a tiger.
These are fun wishes. In about seven minutes you can start.
Til then, youll just listen to the radio from seats edge.
As if then its the look on your face. As if,
as if then youll matter,
And then I cant wait. |
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[Nov. 17th, 2009|02:25 pm] |
Your son is a glorious mess
Who wrecks anything he adores
But deep in his center he swears
There's a candle just waiting to burn
And melt
So who's going to burn him?
Yeah, who's going to break him
To a thousand pieces melting
Over the flames of perfection?
I once felt it's warmth
But it left me shivering in the dark.
"Son, love is a punch in the eye
It's a sudden and swift surprise
It's not a candle, it's not waiting to burn
So baby, just wait your turn
Baby, just wait your turn
And when it hits you, you'll see
Your rose colored apathy
Through the blues that bruises can leave
Was it really worth the wait?" |
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[Oct. 25th, 2009|01:23 pm] |
Full eye contact.
She said "what do you know about love?"
And I said "Alot."
"Like what."
Smile, turn. and walk. |
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[May. 3rd, 2009|05:11 pm] |
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Certain music can make me feel incredible. it can almost be intoxicating. Voids my present world. Everything is put on hold. i Think thats what love is. The right person can fill your life with music. Thats what i want to get back to. |
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[Feb. 23rd, 2009|08:52 pm] |
It doesn't have to be so difficult
just keep coasting by
so you lost a limb
Well hell it'll heal with time
What happens when you love what you've lost?
You didn't have to cut it off
But I did, and I do, and it took everything that I have
I wonder if I could ever get it back
to how it was when I still thought of love
as a risk I could take if I was willing to make
the commitment to rejection
and the mind games, the deception
The late nights under the covers
pointing the finger at whoever started
whatever we were fighting about. |
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[Sep. 4th, 2008|03:07 am] |
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i think that natural destruction is beautiful. restoring the natural order for a short period of time. Showing us there are things we cant control. Ike, remind me that none of this shit matters. |
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[Apr. 21st, 2008|01:11 pm] |
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happy birthday abby. i miss you. |
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[Apr. 17th, 2008|08:25 pm] |
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people are asleep. and the worlds been stolen. what about the future? what about the generations of people to come? what about the things that we destroy in the name of profits? ensuring today that there is a future for the world to come. how about the people in the world that are starving cause small commercial transaction corporations think that there are excess numbers of people in the world. how about capitol vs labor. which is money versus those who have nothing. how about life and navigating it through greed into extinction by creating viruses in laboratories, turning them loose. by selling death, destruction and disaster by importing drugs into the country, so that people are enslaved in sleep. how about the major pharmaceutical companies selling you drugs so youll never wake up and see the truth. how about staying Prozac and zoloft numb so you never look around you and know something is wrong. the manufactured misery that people feel today is deliberately so. there is nothing different in the men of the past, we are no more intelligent. we are given. knowledge is minimal. and yet people who are miseducated, misinformed, seem to not know the truth. they go around life everyday so concerned with gathering up a few dollars, seeing nothing around them. not caring about anything what so ever. all they want to do is work for 40 years, for their little job, 40 hours a week, retire on 40% of what they were earning. and they think this is living. theyve never lived a day of their lives. never knowing that there is enough for everyone in the world if people would stop stealing from each other thinking they horde something in holding. all that you acquire on this planet, it is nothing. it doesnt go with you, there is no pockets in your soul. you take nothing off this planet. when you leave here, who did you help, what difference did you make in the world, did you better the world by your life and your presence and existence here. if you havent, what kind of a person were you? what kind of citizen of the world are you? there is no thing such as a flag or a symbol or a nation. |
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[Apr. 15th, 2008|11:58 pm] |
Oh great
here I go again I'm stuck in this rut
and I'm not sure how to begin.
should I tell you everything?
I'm feeling out of luck so I won't see you soon
cause I know it's too soon for you to see me.
if this is the last thing you do just tell me that it's ok for me to have these feelings for you
and that it's normal to want to call you.
Oh I'm dialing the phone and I'm letting it ring for hours and I'm pretending to hear your voice.
Why does my heart always beat before yours does?
After a while you can make yourself believe in almost anything,
so I'm making myself believe in you. |
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[Apr. 12th, 2008|10:00 pm] |
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i miss writing saves the day songs to eachother. |
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[Mar. 25th, 2008|01:09 am] |
Always remember to never surrender
And laugh at the danger that kept us together so far. |
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[Mar. 11th, 2008|01:54 am] |
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theses 2 months are just gonna be really hard. |
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[Mar. 3rd, 2008|03:57 am] |
theres so much color u cant see cause A its brand new, bloody, gross, and covered in all kinds of garbage and B because the lighting in my bathroom is terrible and its like 4 AM. whatever. |
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[Feb. 25th, 2008|12:06 am] |
im so used to having the ones im close to around. its been really weird not having that. i feel like i have these awkward friendships with everyone. like im never on the same page with the people around me. even though i wish i was. maybe i try too hard.
im not unhappy.
just wish things were closer. |
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[Jan. 24th, 2008|12:38 pm] |
theres no more dancing around metaphors and being vague.
i meant every word i said.
i love you and i want you in my life.
and im doing everything i can to make that happen.
ill wait as long as you need me to.
because you are the best i can do for myself.
and im keeping that promise. |
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[Dec. 24th, 2007|07:18 pm] |
i cant explain how different things were around this time last year.
i feel displaced. |
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[Dec. 21st, 2007|11:52 pm] |
that person that hate christmas. not from a religious point, cause i think that was lost a long time ago in general,but just for what its worth.
i hate complaining, i really do. but i imagine that is what this thing is for. i feel so selfish. i really dont know if this is how youre suppost to live. it doesnt feel right. maybe thats all there is. a universal discontent with the ways things are.
the only thing that has ever led me to believe in any god is the song choice in public places when im upset. "i wanna be sedated" came on today at moes. i think thats what god would do if he was real. poke at people wounds with irony.
iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
thats just the letter my hand rested on for a while.
this state is killing me. ill convince myself of that until i move and accept that this is just life, or my life, and this is how its going to be wherever i go. reclusive. discontent.
i hate working to live.
choking back tears with anger for me is easier, so i yelled at a woman today because she didnt think that i need original receipts for invoice and transaction numbers when doing returns or exchanges. she tried to "disprove" me by showing me a receipt from target.
stupid bitch.
ever just want to disappear?
dont answer that. |
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[Jul. 12th, 2007|08:54 pm] |
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im bored and sick. my skin is really sensative right now, and im still fucking coughing. i hate doctors. i wish someone would take care of me. |
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[Jun. 30th, 2007|12:55 pm] |
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lord knows ive been trying. |
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